Overwhelmed yet blessed...

So, I went to the doctors Friday for a follow up with my mono. Little did I know it would send me into a total reality check. That I have not really been resting like I should have been. My Dr. wanted me to take about a month off both jobs. Of course I couldn't do that. So I hate to say I negotiated with my Dr. and we decided I would just not work my second job during the week, just on Saturdays for the next month. This is going to lead to tight money but yet know it is needed and prevent me from ending up in the hospital with this which would be a lot higher of a price tag. And she also gave me steroids for my somewhat swollen spleen. The blessing in this, I already have this coming Saturday off and the Saturday before Easter too so I will only really be working 2 Saturdays in the next month. So plenty of time for the much needed rest and to  pace myself.
So on that note. Since then I feel more tired, not sure if it is just reality hitting me and I can't hide from it anymore or what. Slept for 11 hours Friday night. Obviously much needed. Didn't do much at all before work managed to work my full shift Saturday but exhausted after.
Yesterday I think everything began hitting me of what I have put off for a few weeks. Honestly I think it put me over the edge yesterday. Thankfully I have a great guy who has done everything he can to help me out and making me let go of the little things and not do it all. I couldn't feel more blessed by Steve's help the past few days.
Today even though I have been working this whole time, for some reason today just overwhelmed me. I couldn't keep focused and couldn't get the things I needed to get done by the end of the day. Blessed to have Jill that I work with to remind me it is not the end of the world and others can get it taken care of in the morning. Reminded me it is ok to cry and feel this way with the mono. After a short nap after work I do feel a little better. And looking forward to dinner and a movie for a relaxing evening which Steve is bringing over so I don't have to cook or anything.

This reality check has made me put a lot of things in perspective. Some things need to get done and somethings can just wait. I need to put my independent nature aside and not be so stubborn. It only helps to let others help out it is not a sign of weakness. I know I just can't do it all. As much as I hate this mono thing. It makes me love where my life is right now and how truly blessed I am by my family and friends and knowing God is going to take care of me too.

In the mean time. I tried playing with a picture app on my new phone and liked how the rain looked on the window...